MIA....

Yep that would be me....MIA for nearly a month.
I haven't blogged nor have I visited some of my favorite bloggers. Sorry for that.

Lately life has been getting the better of me. For a while there I was pretty angry at the world for what I thought had been taken away from me. I was really missing my best friend. I felt like a part of me had been cut out. I was really missing the school we were growing. And I was very angry and upset that I felt like she and her family was ripped away from me and mine.
I still miss her each and every day...I still wish that she was a mere 20 minutes away from me and that I got to see her 5 days a week 8 or more hours a day. But that's not the case and I know that her leaving me had nothing to do with me and everything to do with the ecomony that we now live in. It still sucks though.
I was pretty miserable for a good many weeks. I was snapping at the world and all I wanted to do was sleep and hope that when I woke up that the stuff that I thought was wrong would have disappeared. Unrealistic I know. But that's where I was at that point.

A friend of mine noticed my mood change and started gently probbing my behavior and moods and I am very thankful that she did. Her and I have been doing a 40 day journey and while not all the days in the book bring about a revelation they have caused me to think about some deep seated issues in myself. I am hoping I have turned a true corner this time...a corner that I wouldn't backtrack to again. That tends to be an issue of mine....I'm not very good at making permanent changes in myself. I'm a work in progress.

I'm still struggling with being the best me I can be. I tend to have those moments when I go backwards rather than moving forward into the place I want to be. But at least now I can recognize that and stop myself midway and change directions.

So hopefully I can put my best foot forward and being to grow and change for the betterment of myself and my family.
Wish me luck.